Music!

Oh my god. I think - whisper it - I've regained the capacity to take pleasure in things! Today I enjoyed playing my violin for the first time since round about November.

Depression strips away my ability to do anything - first to go are the things I ought to do, then it takes the things I love. Always music, my greatest joy, which comforts me in all but the darkest times, is the last to go. When I lose the ability to take pleasure in music, when even the most beautiful pieces played by the greatest musicians sound like fingernails on a blackboard to me, that's when I feel as though I might as well be dead.

But now it's come back! I've been playing for hours and it feels great (though my neighbours might not agree :laugh. It feels like I'm coming back to life, after being frozen for so long. I think this is the beginning of the end of my depression. Here's hoping - I'd forgotten what it was like to smile, and now I'm grinning from ear to ear!

 

ooooh GLAD GLAD GLAD!!!!

Ok you've inspired me to approach me piano and see if I can lose meself in it like I used to.

 

It must be a big piano if you can get lost in it! :tongue:

:dry: (Sorry)

Have fun, and make a *lot* of noise!

 

:laugh:

 

Violin!!!! Ooh, I grew up with that, my dad played it. I love live music. My eldest daughter played recorder, flute, piano, and especially, bassoon. Music is IT!!! If God ever has to take one of my senses I hope it's not my hearing. Couldn't do without music! (just went to hear our local symphone do Beethoven's Pastorale! Lovely lovely!:smile: :smile

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