My 23 year-old son commited suicide.....

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by marc7, Mar 24, 2011.

  1. marc7

    marc7 New Member

    ..he was 8 years old when he wrote these:

    His first 'try' was at 13.

    I'm still trying to figure this out.

    He lived in Austin, TX and I am in LA. I invited him to come live with me numerous times but he kept saying; -no dad, I'm O.K.

    I visited my grown-up babies in Austin about 1 year before this incident. I invited him to come live with me (again) about 2 months before he took his life.

    I knew he was 'extremely' suicidal and didn't want him to sense that in me, I was paranoid and afraid he'd succeed in taking his life.

    When I read about "the Tunisian fruit seller who kick-started the Arab uprising" I figured that he didn't died in vain. This makes me think that I NEED to do something that can come out from my son's sacrifice.

    God Bless
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  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi Marc, and welcome...I am so sorry for your loss...When I have lost ppl I love dearly, I have felt the same...that I should make their loss meaningful...sometimes, i have, and I did feel better...I hope you are getting the support you need at this time and that you are being kind to yourself...welcome again, and big hugs, J
  3. luka

    luka Active Member

    hey, im also a father and i cannot begin to imagine your pain and i am sorry for your loss, if you ever need anything or anyone to talk to, i am here for you.

    you cannot do something to get out of your sons sacrifice, there is nothing that can replace him and your love for him. all you need to do is remember him and remember his name and what he stood up for and valued, in your heart he will always be your little boy.
    thank you for sharing
  4. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    welcome to SF Marc...I'm so sorry for the loss of your dear son
    I too have lost my son to suicide..
    i understand your pain and the need to do something in his memory..
    here if you need to talk..*hug*
  5. Jenny

    Jenny Staff Alumni


    I wish i had the words right now, although I realise nothing could really ease your grief at this incredibly painful time. I am so very sorry for your loss. Hope you're able to take good care of yourself at this time.

    Thinking of you
  6. Terry

    Terry Antiquities Friend Staff Alumni

    As a parent i can't even begin to imagine how you deal with this.
    Welcome to the forum and I hope and pray you can find some peace :hug
  7. chipper

    chipper Well-Known Member

    you're a strong guy. how are you holding up?