I went out with a couple of people from work last night. I had a couple of drinks and one of the guys asked if I wanted to go "to the car" aka go smoke.. I got really high.. too high.. I go back in and two of my bosses were sitting at the table I left. My instant thought was greattttttt. I sat there and it kept getting worse and worse, I instantly regretted doing it, but I have just been so impulsive lately, I can't control myself. I could feel my bosses like judging me, and the rest of the people at the table knew too. It was so bad. My friend took me home, I had to get my roommate to take me back to my car this morning. I am so ashamed, I am so embarrassed, and I have this huge knot of anxiety in my chest. I am so afraid of being judged when I go to work tonight, I don't want to go. I want to die, I am so embarrassed. I won't get fired, because the girl who took me home said that my boss dudes smoke too, but I am just absolutely mortified. I just need someone to tell me it will be okay, because I am afraid I'm going to have a panic attack.