Feelings of anxiety have always made me afraid to be in certain places and stall going out even if I'm going somewhere good. It's either not been strong enough or just been on a case by case basis (like being afraid to go to *that* class, or to go out this morning only). Since the last few months of last year though it's definitely moved to being worthy of being called agoraphobia, actually I'm not sure that's true, it was developing alot more in my previous down phase last year. Anyway, who cares? Recently I've been feeling a bit worse than I had been, after Xmas and New Year I'd decided I absolutely had to move house and live alone which I finally did a month ago. The house was a large cause of my anxiety, after deciding this and doing it I felt a lot better, could deal with more things and go out and stuff. I had a sense of being overwhelmed though and the last couple of weeks have felt more and more glad when I know I don't have to see anyone all day. I've met people socially but afterwards felt so bad about it, like I'd made a fool of myself and should be embarassed. This was so strong after going out Saturday that I'm still feeling it and making no moves at all to contact anybody I know. I'm not even responding to emails from strangers I was meant to be organising getting furniture from as it still means interacting with people. I can only do this because I don't know any of you and don't have to meet you in real life. I'm not looking forward to tomorrow as I have to let an engineer into my flat to have the phone connected, which will also mean having to phone (the thing I hate the most) the caretaker to let him in the phone lines cupboard.