i've always harmed on my left lower arm. Started with scratching back in 2004. stopped eventually. But started again in 2006, this time cutting and scratching, but after a while I turned to burning as well. First I did it because I felt that I deserved the pain. nowadays it's different. I hate the scars I'm having, I hate them but I know that most of them probably won't go away anymore, at least not entirely. They get more visible when I'm cold or when I've been sunbathing but back to where I was. these days I don't do it for the pain. In fact I just selfharm when I've had hashcookie. When I'm on them, I can have more before I feel pain, thus I can do more damage to myself before it really hurts too much to continue. Leaving me with bigger scars every time. I deserve the scars. I dont know why I'm writing this.