My attempt, and what happened after, & some advice too.

Well, many of you may have already noticed, i havent been on here for almost 3 weeks.

Heres what happened, hopefully this will be posted and im still under stupid moderation;

On the 28th Augest, i overdosed in the early hours of the morning, the episode lasted around 4 hours, it was not an attempt to take my life, it was an attempt to hurt myself internally, and die from the effects, which i almost did.

In the morning, i thought id fall asleep and never wake up, but unfortunetly, i did wake up, in bad pain, and i was shaking. I went downstairs, looked at my mum, she asked why i was shaking, and if im ok, i told her i overdosed, i gave her the leftover tablets, and she asked me to get dressed, and she would take me to hospital.

When we arrived at hospital, they took my temperature, blood pressure & pulse, like they usually do. The tablets were already in process of destroying me, my temperature was high, blood pressure was high, and pulse was over 100. So i got hooked up to machines, and they took blood tests to see if it caused any damage.

Whilst they were doing that, i went tacicardic and i was so scared because i almost did die. My pulse was still high, but i was breathing ok again. They told me it was probably the tablets.

Later on in the night, they said the blood tests appeared to be fine, but they wanted to keep me in overnight because of that incident and to see if i was functioning ok as they couldnt find an artrie for the blood test to check my kidneys were ok.

During the night, i was crying, and got up alot, and thought to myself, 'I'm going to be put into hospital, i just know it'.

In the morning, they had a meeting, with all these professionals, and a security guard was there, i knew that ment i was going to be sectioned into a physc ward, as previously no security guard was needed.

They asked me to go out after half an hour of the meeting, and discussed what would happen. I returned to the meeting, and thats when they told me i was going to be in hospital for 28 days. I was under section 2 of the mental health act. Meaning, id go into a adolescent pshyciatric unit and be assessed, stay there for 28 days, and on the 27-28th day, id be told what will happen, if ill stay, or if ill go.

Its been 2 weeks and a half since ive been in hospital and there is a meeting on the 25th to decide whether i stay for a few more weeks, or go home.

This is whats happened to me, and why i havent been on.

Im aloud home 3 nights maximum per week, and this is my first weekend home, since i was doing a bit better in hospital, so im aloud home for 3 nights maximum. :smile:

I wont be on here anymore, well, not very much.

Goodluck to everyone, and take my advice when i say;

Suicide is taking the easy way out, serious consequences can occur if fail happens, if succeed, your family and friends and anyone who ever knew you will be effected badly.

Do not suicide.

Ok?
Hang in there everyone who is suicidal and depressed.

I was and still am suicidal, but im not as suicidal, i dont think death everyday or suicide everyday, i think that only every other day, or i have mood swings which effects my thoughts.

I hope everyone stays alive and keeps there dreams on the line.

Dreams are not wanting to die, dreams are not seeing yourself suiciding, dreams are the future, ie; Careers, family life, motherhood, college and fulfilling your dreams.

Nightmares is wanting to die, and seeing yourself suiciding/dying.

Please hang in there everyone.

Take care, and i love you all,

Sarah.

 

Thank you Sarah for posting about what is happening with you. I had been wondering and was concerned. I am glad to know that you are okay. I hope everything works out for you hun. Take care. :hug:

 

i was wondering where you had gone, and was hoping that everything was ok. i am glad that you are getting better now, and i hope that the attempt hasnt caused any perminant damage. :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: i wish you the best luck in the world.

 

i have missed you... thought you were upset with me... hope things r better for you and continue to get better for you ... hugs..

 

Hey sarah i just want to talk to you badly....MY MSN İS hotty_fem@hotmail.com...if u want u can add me and we can talk