I hope this is the proper place to post this. (I'm extremely new to this site, so please correct me if I'm wrong) I may end up rambling on and on and on and I apologize in advance for that. My mind is literally just a jumbled mess. I met with my counsellor weekly, for 2 years. At first I made great progress but then I hit a bump in the road & I ended up being hospitalized for several weeks. After that it almost seemed like I was on a high, I was invincible & I thought I was forever cured from all my mental disorders. & she too thought I was perfectly okay because I managed to get a job and I didn't drop out of school (those were literally her supporting points) but I was truly just trying to occupy the time that I was wasting, by existing, not living. I was comfortable talking to her & I was content. But within the past few months, she stopped listening to what I was saying & just made me fight for myself, and I was not making good choices for the situations. But she didn't seem to care, my self-harm was at an all time worst, but she never bothered to check in with me, even though my parents had told her I was doing it daily & I was overly suicidal, but she never took my clues (I could never tell her up front that I was feeling that way, but she was VERY good at receiving my clues). I ended up back in the hospital again when she sent me there from school, but she never checked in to see how I was doing & she closed my file literally 6 days later. I also feel like I may have a misdiagnosis on a couple disorders. But she didn't take me seriously on that & told me that I just didn't understand parts of my diagnosis. (not related to the previous 2 sentences) I have OCD, I count EVERYTHING, I count anything and everything. (and i do small other things that arent relevant.) and lately I've just been swamped with OCD/Anxiety & it sucks. a lot. I don't think I came up wit the coping strategies that we had originally planned to, therefore I don't know how to cope with it other than to give in to all my urges. I have been very on edge and I'm not sure what to do with myself lately. I'm sorry that most of this probably doesn't make sense. & I apologize for rambling. I know I forgot things but I don't really care at this point. I just have a lot of jumbled thoughts.