Well, i figured i would tell the story of my attempt. This was a few months ago. anyway, i had finnally decided to go through with it. It was actually pretty impulsive, i just decided it was time and made a plan to do it the next day. So i went out and bought the necessary equipment and wrote my note the night before.
now, and i still think about this, the weird part is that although i was certain that it was my last day on earth i didnt do anything special. I just ate dinner, read some of my book and dozed off. I mean, isnt that weird? It was as if it was any other day. I dont know, it seems odd to me now.
but anyway, morning came and i was prepared. I drove to this nice scenic outlook and prepared to drift off for eternity. In fact, i had actually passed out and was getting close to death, when a person walked by and thought something was amiss. So this asshole thinking he's some kind of "hero" decides to pull me out of the car before the CO had finished its job. Well, you can imagine my suprise when i woke up in the hospital. It sucked. and on top of that i was exposed to it long enough to cause permanent short term memory loss. I REALLY wish he hadnt "saved" me.
anyway, i wrote this to dispell peoples fantasies that it is easy or "without consequences" to kill yourself. In fact, many things can go wrong and my life has gotten even worse because of this. And ive come close to attempting twice since then. So, i just wanted to warn people about how serious suicide really is, and hopefully ive dissuaded someone from trying.
now, and i still think about this, the weird part is that although i was certain that it was my last day on earth i didnt do anything special. I just ate dinner, read some of my book and dozed off. I mean, isnt that weird? It was as if it was any other day. I dont know, it seems odd to me now.
but anyway, morning came and i was prepared. I drove to this nice scenic outlook and prepared to drift off for eternity. In fact, i had actually passed out and was getting close to death, when a person walked by and thought something was amiss. So this asshole thinking he's some kind of "hero" decides to pull me out of the car before the CO had finished its job. Well, you can imagine my suprise when i woke up in the hospital. It sucked. and on top of that i was exposed to it long enough to cause permanent short term memory loss. I REALLY wish he hadnt "saved" me.
anyway, i wrote this to dispell peoples fantasies that it is easy or "without consequences" to kill yourself. In fact, many things can go wrong and my life has gotten even worse because of this. And ive come close to attempting twice since then. So, i just wanted to warn people about how serious suicide really is, and hopefully ive dissuaded someone from trying.