i'm new here just joined
well i'm 19, had my first attempt a few months ago
was on a real downer and had an argument with my college tutor that day, he said he wanted me out of the college etcc and came in screaming and shouting, i thought, right thats it, no qualification, no job, no money, might aswell be dead
so it sparked off my first attempt
got home, raiding cupboards, took about 40ish pills (i think!) hadn't eaten or drunken anything all day.
laid down on sofa, next thing i know i was laid on a bed at the doctors surgery with paramedics around me (my first thoughts were FUCK IT, it failed)
because it was 5 hours afer i took them, they could only do bloods and sent me to the observation ward while i waiting to see some person, she started talking to me (i wasn't in the mood to talk) then kept being sick and she said she wasn't happy so would see me in the morn, so had to stay in.
appaz i wasn't as well as i should be the next morn, so did more bloods, my levels were VERY borderline (if only i took those 10 extra pills ! ), by this time i just wanted to get out, didn't want to talk to anyone, so i refused and eventually they let me out in the afternoon.
it wasn't a call for help, it was to die.
no one is in tomorrow so i'm going to go to the shops and stock up (can't find any pills in the house - trust me i've searched)
well i'm 19, had my first attempt a few months ago
was on a real downer and had an argument with my college tutor that day, he said he wanted me out of the college etcc and came in screaming and shouting, i thought, right thats it, no qualification, no job, no money, might aswell be dead
so it sparked off my first attempt
got home, raiding cupboards, took about 40ish pills (i think!) hadn't eaten or drunken anything all day.
laid down on sofa, next thing i know i was laid on a bed at the doctors surgery with paramedics around me (my first thoughts were FUCK IT, it failed)
because it was 5 hours afer i took them, they could only do bloods and sent me to the observation ward while i waiting to see some person, she started talking to me (i wasn't in the mood to talk) then kept being sick and she said she wasn't happy so would see me in the morn, so had to stay in.
appaz i wasn't as well as i should be the next morn, so did more bloods, my levels were VERY borderline (if only i took those 10 extra pills ! ), by this time i just wanted to get out, didn't want to talk to anyone, so i refused and eventually they let me out in the afternoon.
it wasn't a call for help, it was to die.
no one is in tomorrow so i'm going to go to the shops and stock up (can't find any pills in the house - trust me i've searched)
BUT (i know everyone says this) don't do it. Don't do it on impulse. Try to survive another week, or another day. Just try 
I sure don't want to lose anyone here at the forum. And hey I'm 19 too, and we 19year olds have to stay together 