Hi, let me try my hand at this... I'm a 27 year old male. My hell started when I was 15 when I started to develop really bad acne. It reached a peak around 20-21 and has improved since then, although it still remains. The acne has left numerous scars, the kind that are red/brownish and raised. I had some of them surgically removed, but was of course left with surgical scars instead. I'm still getting acne and more scars. Interestingly, my face is almost clear so it's hard for someone else to know that I have any acne. It's my secret to the world. I always wear long sleeves and the last 11-12 summers I have spent indoors, alone. People must think I am just really strange, because I have a good body yet I never go to the beach. I really cannot cope with acne, I think it looks terrible and just sickly and unsightly. I almost never show myself without clothes to anyone. I've never had a relationship, but I desperately long for one. Never been a chick magnet, but I could've had a girlfriend but I turned down or never pursued girls because of body acne. Case in point: there's a girl at the gym right now that is clearly interested in me. She is really pretty and seems to have her life together, but I don't pursue her because my skin is so bad. And I guess she's not gonna wait around either... I lost my virginity to a prostitute. I've had very little sex -- it's expensive to pay for -- and only with hookers. Other consequences of my acne, apart from my non-existant love life, would be that I have to be on a very restrictive diet else my skin gets worse. I have to eat a low-carb diet, with additional restrictions. It helps, but it doesn't take me all the way to clear skin. This diet made it hard/impossible/took the fun out of travelling. But then again, where would I travel? Going on sun vaccations is out of the question for me, as explained above. Eating is also, to me, one of the joys in life and now I can only eat a diet I dislike... At around 21, I started losing hair like crazy. I am now almost bald. As if acne wasn't enough, I am now the victim of TWO disfiguring diseases. I really don't think I have a head shape for being bald; my forehead is too high and my face lost it's proportion and symmetry now that my hairline is gone. When I wear a baseball cap, it "cuts off" my face right where my hairline used to be, so then I still look good. But without it? No. Worst part about losing my hair, though, is that I have acne scars on my head that were previously masked by the hair. Raised, red or white, permanent scars in the back of my head that are making me really self-conscious. Nothing that can be done to improve those either. The damage has now been cemented. Due to the scars, I'll never regain my appearance. ALso, the worst part is that they look so WEIRD. Acne on the scalp? Acne scars on the head? It's more accepted to have scars in the face, to be honest. There was a time when I thought things were gonna resolve. That I could cure acne and maybe even hair loss. Now I'm not so sure anymore. I'm not here to discuss treatments right now though. This has been like a wet blanket on my life for 12 years and my results have been suffering. I have barely any motivation to do anything. I desperately need money. I never had a job, but a little home-based business that earned me a decent income for a few years until it collapsed. When it died, I didn't have the motivation to start it up again due to my life being so bad and feeling so isolated and depressed. Since then, I've been living on my own savings, but those are gone in a few short months. I never had a job, no driver's license, no formal education. Got no contacts; as I said I'm socially isolated. I have trouble meeting new friends. I got some weird behaviours, like always wearing a baseball cap. This is clearly a low-confidence behaviour, but I use the cap to cover up the scars on my head, not so much the hair loss. There are other problems too in my life, some of them pretty bad as well. But what bothers me most is that I am now permanently disfigured, and feel bitter due to everything I have missed out on. I am 27 with the life experience of a 17 y.o. AT MOST. I feel very pathetic. While people my age are getting married or raising kids, I haven't even had a GF. It feels like a false start in a 100 meter sprint, yet no one is calling it off and I'm left at the starting line. I don't know what to do anymore. Even if the acne does leave eventually, my best case scenario is to be a happy gimp. I don't want to be that person. I want to be the happy normal guy. It feels like I have been treated really unfairly by life and I don't want to live under these circumstances. Is that so strange? Thanks for reading.