after i lost my best friend to a drug overdose which i belive to have been intentional, i told myself that i would listen for the signs and i would try and be the good freind that "jake" was. he was the type of guy that would ask you how were doing and ask "just okay" "just good". he really cared about those around him. i told myself that i let him down and that i didnt deserve him as a friend. i thought about suicide. until i lost my older brother recently to suicide. i saw how it affected my mom. she is not the same person, no one in my family is, we are still, months later at a loss for words. my mother is unable to work, and it is hard because she was so driven and strong. if you are thinking of taking ur life. think of the consequences because they do exist, and they live forever in those you love. i understand the depression they both felt, but i have also seen the pain their death causes, the question they leave behind... there are people that love all of us. dont hurt those that love you, and those you love.