Two years ago, my best friend dave asked me out. i had really like him for a long time. I had been his support and his life line in a life that had been horrible to him. his parents were abusive and he wasnt living at home because it was so bad. he had attempted multiple times and i stopped him every time. Then, two days after he asked me out it happened. the unthinkable. it still hurts to think about it. He took out a gun, and right infront of me he shot himself. the two year anniversery is in two weeks and im more depressed than ever. i dont know what to do with myself... i cant be alone. i get afraid. but ive been told its good to talk about it, so thanks for listening, anyone out there.