My best friend of 30 plus years took his own life a few days ago. I found out about it less than 24 hours ago. I am physically ill and the mental anguish is more than I can bear right now. They say that time heals all wounds. Of course, right now I cannot see that happening. There are just too many memories! Too many shared friends and acquaintences with whom I will be in contact Too many great times Too many conversations Too many arguments Too many restaurants and movie theaters we had been to Too many.... Now that I have experienced this kind of pain, I know I could never do this to my family and remaining friends. I know that many of you may have considered the effect that your death would have on family and friends but if you haven't, think of it now. It is pure hell and horror! To those with whom I share pm's and visitor messages, I thought this would be the best way to get this type of news to you. I did not feel it was appropriate to send you a pm like this. Maybe later on I'll be able to talk about it with those who are willing. Thank you SF and friends for listening.