Well here I am another year older.. I was trying to make my birthday into something that is exciting but there is no point "I'm turning 26 on the 26th awesome..." Yeah or not.. I guess the truth of the matter is I didn't want to be here for my 26th birthday. I didn't expect to push myself to go this far. I think thats why I was trying to make my birthday this year seem like a big deal to myself.. its really not a big deal though. Its just another day for me.. same routine.. going to go home after work have a beer then go to sleep.. wake up and do my usual everyday routine. This is how my birthdays have become. I honestly see no point to them anymore.