my bisexual disaster

Discussion in 'Family, Friends and Relationships' started by drmanhattan, Jan 19, 2009.

  1. drmanhattan

    drmanhattan Member

    ok, this is my 2nd post, i'm still emotional from the first.

    i identify as a bisexual woman now, btw

    i was in a great relationship with a girl. beautiful, smart, caring, good person. a real good person.

    i cheated on her, with a guy. i was in love with her, she was in love with me, and i cheated on her. repeatedly with the same guy.
    i never could even have sex with him really, as far as he was concerned i was just gay suddenly interested in him. i don't know what's wrong with me. i can't tell her the truth...i've stopped seeing both of them, and i'm all alone. and i know i deserve to be alone for being such an evil person, but i just dont know what happened.

    i never liked sleeping with him. wasn't too physically attracted. it was like a compulsion. throughout this process i've felt like i've surely gone insane. these 2 happened to be the people i'm closest with, now i have absolutely nothing except the internet, which is why i'm here, pitiful
     
  2. HappyAZaClaM

    HappyAZaClaM Guest

    how come nobody else replied to you post? anyway, don't beat yourself
    over the head about it. you learned something. if your girlfried doesn't
    have any way of finding out, don't guilt yourself into making some
    unneccesary confession of infidelity.

    if she does know, tell her the truth. it was an experimental fling. it's not
    all that unusual. and if it meant nothing, don't wreck a good relationship
    over it. put it behind ya and think what you learned.

    make sense?
     
  3. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    I have always seen honesty as the only option. If you love her so you wouldnt insult her by not saying anything or pretending nothings happened.i cheated on my partner and the first moment i saw him after the cheating i told him. We're still together,2years later.the pain and guilt goes eventually :hug: pm me if you need to
     
  4. wheresmysheep

    wheresmysheep Staff Alumni

    How are you getting on now hun?
     
  5. Kemra

    Kemra Well-Known Member

    Do you love her? Some people (like me) tend to get a bit scared at the thought of getting that close to someone and go out of our way sub-conciously or involuntarily to make sure it never happens. Just a theory.. from what you said about it felt like a compulsion.

    Don't be so hard on yourself to, your not evil, your human, and we all do things we regret and are totally out of character at times. Evil people don't feel remorse or loss. Don't spend a lifetime paying for mistakes.