Im only out of the hospital just under 2 weeks. And already a few days ago all the suicidal stuff came up that had me put in. I got the blades and a plan.my therapist cancelled on me tjis week so i dont see him till sat. Thats all my mind thinks about. I dont know what to do. But i know that last time i made a mistake and called.him to say goodbye and he got me admitted. I wont make that mistake twice. I cant continue like this anylonger.i am also a cutter and my cuts have been getting deeper. They all need stiches. I cant stop. I know they are going too far. But i cant help it. Nor can i get rid of my blades. Theres no hope for me. Im coming to the end.