... is a ****.
Isn't he?
I had meeting with therapist today. Difficult, draining. Shit. Got completely drunk tonight. So then boyfriend fucks me (who am I to say no?? It's all I do lately), makes mistake of laughing at me then telling me it's a 'power trip' to 'hear' me. For fuck's sakes! Isn't this just too inconsiderate?
I don't know.
I don't know anything any more.
Except I want to die. I mean, seriously!! What?!!!?!?!
I went downstairs and cut my legs to fuck. Boyfriend came downstairs, scared the shit out of me hearing door open. Got blood on my PJ trousers. That's just great. Just what I need. Sure my mum will have heard me shouting at him.
I hate everything, everyone. Hate him. And hate the **** who my mother stood up for and wanted to marry. Fuck everyone. I'm in floods of tears. I've tld him to sleep on the floor. I'm a bad person. I'm a fucked up person. It probably isn't even his fault, it never is. I am having flashbacks help me please please please I am hurting so much. I am so damaged. Please help me. :cry: :blub:
Isn't he?
I had meeting with therapist today. Difficult, draining. Shit. Got completely drunk tonight. So then boyfriend fucks me (who am I to say no?? It's all I do lately), makes mistake of laughing at me then telling me it's a 'power trip' to 'hear' me. For fuck's sakes! Isn't this just too inconsiderate?
I don't know.
I don't know anything any more.
Except I want to die. I mean, seriously!! What?!!!?!?!
I went downstairs and cut my legs to fuck. Boyfriend came downstairs, scared the shit out of me hearing door open. Got blood on my PJ trousers. That's just great. Just what I need. Sure my mum will have heard me shouting at him.
I hate everything, everyone. Hate him. And hate the **** who my mother stood up for and wanted to marry. Fuck everyone. I'm in floods of tears. I've tld him to sleep on the floor. I'm a bad person. I'm a fucked up person. It probably isn't even his fault, it never is. I am having flashbacks help me please please please I am hurting so much. I am so damaged. Please help me. :cry: :blub: