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mcacr

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i a m kind of nervous about writing on here. my brother killed himself 2 years ago. we were so close i miss him alot. io dont think i will ever get over it. i feel bad for him. i could have stoped it but i didnt i let him do it and that is the biggest regret of my life. sometimes i feel that if i didnt have a kid i would go with him. i am tired of being depressed over thins and other things. i hate myself i disgust myself
 
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Esmeralda

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I am so sorry for your terrible loss. I'm sure you loved him very much no matter what happened and I hope you can oipen up to us here and get some things off your chest.
 
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Atheist Demon

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mcacr said:
i a m kind of nervous about writing on here. my brother killed himself 2 years ago. we were so close i miss him alot. io dont think i will ever get over it. i feel bad for him. i could have stoped it but i didnt i let him do it and that is the biggest regret of my life. sometimes i feel that if i didnt have a kid i would go with him. i am tired of being depressed over thins and other things. i hate myself i disgust myself
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That is very sad I know that is because I was close to my grandma. You can't blame yourself, and keep on living because your child needs you. Suicide isn't the answer, he wouldn't want you to do that to yourself, please PM me if you need to rant/vent, have a friend, or just have someone to have a convo. I might not be much, but I think NO ONE should feel hopeless.
 
gentlelady

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Sorry to hear about the loss of your brother. You said you regret that you didn't stop him. The choice your brother made was his choice and no one else's. There is no guarantee that you could have prevented him from taking his life. There is always a certain amount of guilt that survivors of suicide carry aound with them. I am sure your brother knew that you loved him, but for some reason life became too difficult for him to handle. You need to hang on for your child. You know from experience what suicide feels like. Imagine what it could do to your child.
 
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