recently, my oldest brother started to hit me. My other brother (who is older than me also) has been doing this for years and verbally abusing me also. I never expected him to hit me though. He has pretty much been a father figure to me. So, when he hit me, it hurt worse than the beating. I have been told before by people to go and get help...but i cant. A) it is my word verses theirs B) i have problems with confrontation C) they are family in other words, i cant get help. i just need to tell someone...so i am posting it here. It is probably my fault anyhow. If i had cleaned the house right, and didnt say anything about...anything...i would have been fine. But i wish i could keep it all in still...it is a lot easier than writng this and it is sure as hell a lot easier to get by without any pity. I am not posting this because i want pity. i am posting this because i dont know what to do.