Today I had a tough day at work. I thought I had put in all the text into a report I'm designing, but it turned out so had forgotten to include a huge bulk of text that I had somehow missed in the document. I had told my boss I had it all finished, thinking I did have it all finished, so I couldn't tell him about my mistake. I stayed in late to do the work I thought I had completed. I would have had plenty of time to get it done originally, if I hadn't been so bloody careless.
I came home after work, and cooked dinner for myself. I rent a room from an elderly woman who lives in the house with me. (She's the home owner.) It turned out that I accidentally left one of the rings on the gas cooker after I'd finished cooking, and she'd accidentally burnt her hand off it when she was cleaning as a result. She had every reason to be furious with me - despite my best efforts, this isn't the first time I've accidentally left a gas ring on by mistake. She was very nice to be about it, but I felt absolutely sick with guilt. (And terrified, because I could have burnt the house down due to my stupidity.) To make matters worse, she's going away on holidays next week, and she's supposed to be trusting me to look after the house while she's gone. Understandably, she is now voicing concern about leaving the house in my care. I'm worried that I have broken her trust, and that I can't earn it back. And genuinely worried that I'll burn the house down due to my own stupidity! (If I don't get evicted first!)
I keep making lots of stupid mistakes lately, that individually aren't necessarily the end of the world, but added up, keep causing serious trouble for me and everyone around me. I feel like a useless fuck up of an adult who can't do anything right.
I came home after work, and cooked dinner for myself. I rent a room from an elderly woman who lives in the house with me. (She's the home owner.) It turned out that I accidentally left one of the rings on the gas cooker after I'd finished cooking, and she'd accidentally burnt her hand off it when she was cleaning as a result. She had every reason to be furious with me - despite my best efforts, this isn't the first time I've accidentally left a gas ring on by mistake. She was very nice to be about it, but I felt absolutely sick with guilt. (And terrified, because I could have burnt the house down due to my stupidity.) To make matters worse, she's going away on holidays next week, and she's supposed to be trusting me to look after the house while she's gone. Understandably, she is now voicing concern about leaving the house in my care. I'm worried that I have broken her trust, and that I can't earn it back. And genuinely worried that I'll burn the house down due to my own stupidity! (If I don't get evicted first!)
I keep making lots of stupid mistakes lately, that individually aren't necessarily the end of the world, but added up, keep causing serious trouble for me and everyone around me. I feel like a useless fuck up of an adult who can't do anything right.