Hey im an 20 year old guy And my life sucks,when I was little I had nothing To worry about, Just having fun playing games. Most people realize they cannot go back in time and move on. I just can't, I've been feeling like this for about 5 years And stil cannot accept im an adult now. I feel horrible if someone calls me sir or man. It became so bad that I attempted suicide 2 times, The older I get the more I'm getting depressed. I escape reality by playing video games and locking myself In my room. When I see other kids playing outside I just can't help but feeling pain inside, I never got the love I deserved. And I never had close friends or a relationship Because I fear being loved, I really do.... I just can't or want to get over it. Is this the end for me? How many years do I need to get older before I can't Take it anymore and end it all? I Lost the real me and can't find it back... It's so frustrating! Anyone else feeling this way? Ronno.