He says that ortodox jews dont work like me and that i will find people in there who are like me, even though im trying to explain to him that i dont work becouse i CANT work and that i got issues he still keeps trying to send me to a jewish church whatever its called. WTF am i suppose to do? I keep feeling like im desapointing him and it makes me feel even more worthless! After new year eve my parents will try to send me to my syster back in Israel (i lived there for 14 years - i am 23 now and live in Ukaine) and hopefully i will be able to find a job in there. Here in ukraine i find it difficult to find a job becouse my russian is not very good and i dont know ukranian at all. God please help me to be strong enough to servive on my own! I dont want to live with my parents any more, this is my oprtunity! This is what i waited for for 5 years! Now is the time to proove to myself that i can be strong! God please help me!