*If you are under 21 or are easily offended by sexual or violent material, please do not read this post.* This is sort of like a confession. I've been bothered by this for a while, but have never really been sure whether it's a problem that I should deal with. As with most guys, I've used pornography since a certain age. My parents always told me how evil it was, even saying that they hoped I would get arrested, but never really telling me why. It's been similar to an addiction. It's gotten worse consistently. Currently, it is almost illegal <Mod Edit, WildCherry: graphic> though no one is being harmed. I've watched people's reactions to this kind of thing and consistently see that I will not be accepted by anyone, ever. I don't look at it simply to feel pleasure, but rather to ease my irrational anger and sadness by looking at the suffering of others. I don't know that I would even want to be close to anyone given what a disgusting, dangerous person I am.