Having a horrid day. Woke up, took some of my Aderal. Saw someone for a few minutes, kind of hoped we would have longer. Then my aderal hit really hard, and i spent most my day very anxious. Went to my old job, no final checks.. Which would have helped. Got home and passed out from exhaustion, and mild dehydration. Then woke up 2 hours later right for midnight. I can't sleep.. Anymore. I need a job 2 weeks ago. Can't tell my new girl friend, that i may be moving away in 2 weeks. If i get hit by a miracle i won't need to. So stressed out, i just lay in bed and try to figure things out. I feel guilty that i'm so withdrawn from everyone. My friend is really trying to help, my other has kind of disappeared on me, and my girlfriend has trouble relating.. Though she tries. I've taken to thinking about my Ex all the time. There was no closure at all.. And i can't see a therapist right now, to talk it out. My sleep schedule is on a reverse, day-nite thing. I feel completely alone most of the time. So basically, i'm stressed out. Hurt about someone who used me. Depressed. Anxious. Alone (literally). And can't turn to "plan b" bc it would harm an unborn family member.