My day.

Discussion in 'Let it all out...' started by resistance, Sep 20, 2006.

  1. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    [FONT=Verdana, Geneva, sans-serif]I hate getting out of bed and facing a "new" day only for it to be full of crap like the previous. I go to bed hoping I don't wake up and this afternoon I woke, was physically and mentally exhausted. I hate feeling this way. I had to go out, tried to dodge the rush of school people but I went out too late and the place was crowded, I couldn't go in any shops. My social anxiety took over and I came home. My dad then wanted me to go to the bookies and it was full, I walked in and two of the guys started giving me crap and were talking about me. I didn't look at them but they were saying, "look at her, look at her" and it was so obvious they were talking about me. I walk around and try to hide my fear, try to act "normal" but I'm shite at acting and I just wanted to get out of there as fast as I could. The only place I feel safe is in my own home, the only place I want to be is in my bed and I want to stay there. It's such a chore having to get out of bed and facing a day.

    The nieghbours next door were pestering me, or more, their friends were. I walked past their gate and I they started quizzing me shouting, "Are you an emo?" Fuck. You. I cannot express how much I hate that stereotype and I ignored them because I just couldn't be bothered to talk to them. They say ignoring is the best thing, but is it really? If you were to talk and to fight your corner then at least you stand up to yourself. If you ignore they say they will realise they ain't getting to you but if you ignore, then sometimes they KNOW they are getting to you and they continue to harrass you. But yeah, even if talking and fighting your corner is the best thing I really cannot be bothered. I was suprised when one of the nieghbours said, "Leave her alone, she lives next door to me" because it's normally her who gives me crap in the first place.

    Meh.. I got out of bed at 2.30pm, now it is 7pm and I feel like going back to bed and staying there.
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  2. wienerman

    wienerman Guest

    :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

    im really sorry that all this stuff has happened to you, some people just have no respect for others. never forget you are an amazing person hun. please take care
     
  3. Tigerstripe

    Tigerstripe Guest

    :awww: it suck's that you feel that way and that you get pestered by some little shit's that prolly could do with a slap. As for the Are you an Emo question i get asked that to and i alway's do the same thing which is smile and say "if you say so" but still :hug: