My days at the moment consists of. Go make a cup of tea, sit on sofa, think about suicide, how big my problems are and I'm never going to get better. More thoughts about how things are going to go wrong, any minute my bro will die. I will become homeless and more. Start having panic attacks, think I'm going to die. LoL, have more panic attacks. Have to get undressed and go to bed. Try to sleep, can't. Same old thoughts. Get up sit on sofa, try to play World of Warcraft, can't because of intrusive thoughts. And the cycle is complete, roll on tommorow. LOL God, I want to die. But I'm too scared to die, hehe.