I find myself on here making topics and some times it feels like it's in vain. I try not to take away from other people's problems here, but I can't deny my own. The thing is, my problems are not going to get better. They are real issues that no dumbass lazy doctor can fix with dangerous pills, there is no hope or light that will shine forth to make this darkness, and I am so sick of being torn with my faith or lack of it when it comes to God. At the end of this month, if things continue to get worse, or really, just stay the same, I'm taking my life. I am so sick of living with so much pain and feeling so worthless. School seems so far off, there are hardly any job opportunities, and I can't get over this two year old broken heart. I'm just disgusted and sick of life.