[So I decided to make this diary because I wasn't sure where to talk about all the little things I feel and minor things that happen without spamming threads. I don't know how often I'll write here, but as the title says, when I do, I'd enjoy it if people would reply (if they'd like.) If something big comes up or I start feeling severely suicidal, I probably make another thread. However, my feelings have been rather low-key of late.] I'm feeling down and kinda want to hurt myself, but it's not anything serious. I mean, I made myself bleed a little not too long ago by messing with the scabs covering the places where I'd minorly injured myself a few days ago and thought about making some new ones, but a crisis this isn't. Honestly this might be no more than boredom, loneliness and overthinking. I just keep thinking too much. Tonight I came to the conclusion that I should not be alive, that I was not meant to be on this earth. I'm not sure what made me think that, but it has stuck with me. I texted my friend (one of the two I've been torturing with talk of suicidal thoughts recently) about it, and he reassured me that I should be alive. I told him I had trouble believing him. Now I feel a little guilty about the disbelief somehow. I'll probably lie here and watch Netflix instead of sleeping. Like that's gonna make me feel better.