I was going to take an overdose of Zoloft, but because of my gag reflex against pills, I had to stop at around 2000 mg. 8+ hours later, when I had gone to bed, my mind began to act up. Slightly later, I was temporarily psychotic. Now I knew what the psych ment 3 years ago when she asked if I thought my thoughts went by fast. I couldn't focus on anything for more than 2 seconds, I tried to fight it by counting to 100. when I got to 10, my off-its-axis mind forgot what I was doing, as I continued counting, weird thoughts and images from nowhere came into my mind. Nothing to focus on, but this 1% of my mind that was my consciousness/me, kept sane enough to think of one thing: GET ON THE COMPUTER! On the computer it might be easier to focus and "stay in this world". And I thought of the suicideforum chat, that I should try to keep up a conversation there. IT HELPED. It helped in that my mind didn't drift off the computer or mix blend fantasy and reality and write weird things. When I was in chat, i would only notice I was still crazy when I closed my eyes. So I stayed on the chat till I was well enough to try to sleep without crazy thoughts keeping me awake. I want to thank everyone who was there yesterday, making me feel much better, and convincing me that I hadn't ruined my brain forever, that it would go away. After a while I could even make jokes and chat about random stuff. You dewdz are awesome. Anyway, my mind is back to normal, but every muscle in my body hurts. Like before a cramp. It hurts to walk. So, I'm never touching zoloft again. Before and during my psychotic episode, there was this feeling that I can't put words on, it can't be explained, but it was the worst night in my life. The feeling was certainly related to fear. PS: while I was in chat, i have never been as honest. ever, anywhere. I spoke right from my heart and the kind chat people (forgot all the names) spoke right to my heart.