From the beginning, you must know my life sucks. So, let's start. When I was born, I had some problems and I was near to death (why the fuck didn't I die then??). My parental grandparents denied me bacause they said I look like my mother, so I don't have memories with them cause they didn't want me. My maternal grandparents some day don't even let my come in in the middle of the winter and I got frostbites. When I was little my parents always were insulting and fighting each other (I was beaten by them too). When I was like 5-6, they divorced. I stayed with my mom, and my dad said that I can always call him and he wants to see me. He never answered my calls since then. After 5 months, my grandpa died. I am now 15 and never had a girlfriend, so no hugs, no kisses etc. I don't have good friends. My mates always make silly jokes because of my looking (I don't see something wrong with my looking, but considering that all girls denied me, I think I am broken or something). And are a lot more of these! And I am thinking to suicide (my mom said she would have a much better life without me either). I don't think I can handle this more. I don't know how you could help me, but if you can, just don't tell me religious arguments about God and crap like that.