I am so sad and frustrated. I reach out for help but I think that they have just grown accustomed to the way that I am. Maybe, that means that I should just get it over with. . . just go ahead and do it. They are ready, they've heard about it enough times so maybe they are just ready for it to be over with. Maybe even more than I am. I take care of everyone around me , so that would be the only reason why they would miss me. They would only be able to think of the things that I no longer do for them, nothing else. I am so tired of taking care of everyone and there being no one there to return the favor. I have been through so much in my life ( I won't bore you with the details) but I just can not take anymore. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired to simply put it. If I could find ONE person just one that cared about me just as much as I care about them I wouldn't do it because there would be hope. But sadly there is none so this is my farewell.