All my life my father has told me not to do things, major in business, engineering. And now he is saying I have to have a job to move out. That is why I can't move out, because he doesn't want me to be an engineer or teacher. I have my physics degree and 39 years old. He always says I need to get married. But he does not want me to move out or give me a day off. I'm stuck in a crap town. He wants me to see all my dreams pass by til I'm 60 and then tell me that I should have done things. I should just kill myself before he laughs at me. After seeing my brother and sister commit suicide. I think his conscious is not that strong. He will get over my suicide in a couple months. And say stupid kid. My mother will have enough money. Maybe, my mother will take it harder. But definitely not my father. He's trained himself to be an a hole.