Wow.. I don't think I have ever really been that blunt about it. I am struggling in a major way. At the recommendation of my therapist I began writing my experiences online (blogging), but I need more support and so I am attempting to build a support system. This seemed like a good place to start. Last night I wanted to hurt myself. Since being here I have already found something that might help me... "The Emergency Box." Rewriting everything seems a bit redundant. I have a blog and this post is the main part of my story. If you could take a minute to read it. You'll know where I'm at. http://raganjane.wordpress.com/2012/04/19/the-garden-shed/ I purchased a pregnancy test this week. I'm waiting until Saturday or Sunday. Truth is I just keep putting it off because I think seeing a "yes" might be my breaking point. I am filing a report this week as well. I'm a nervous wreck, but I'm moving in a forward motion. My name is Ragan, I'm new... and very scared.