Everything is my fault. Went out to Maidstone with a couple friends today. One of my friends has been drugged through her drink. She had exactly the same as me to drink and she can handle her drink so much better than I can. She's falling over everywhere (even with heels off), She can't speak, she can't walk straight, she didn't even know she was home. I got her home and her mum gave me such a look of disgust. I'm not even welcome in their house anymore and I have to go there tomorrow and give her phone, fully charged. Her mum will just look at me with disgust and shut the door in my face.. I was so welcome in her house and now because of this I'm not welcome at all. It's not my fault, yet I'm being blamed. I don't even deserve to have this life. I'm literally nothing. I can't even keep my friends safe.