Hello everyone.
I have hit a new low point and every minute of every all I think about is escaping. I have stopped caring about myself and am realy struggling to get through each day.
I can't sleep more than 2 hours a night. I lie there and my eyes are closed but it feels like im awake all night - but then of a day I am tired and have zero energy.
My family never cared about me in 32 years and one by one I have fell out with everyone except my auntie which made me realise that I must be the problem.
I've had suicidal thoughts for at least 10 years but this time is different. I have thought about travelling to a remote place but decided at home is best as there is a less chance of a member of the public having to find me.
My auntie is in her late 70s and she has no idea I feel like this as I would not ever want to worry her, especially at her age and health.
To anyone who reads this who might be having negative thoughts, please don't give up hope like me. I am just a week person and I truly belive there is no solution for me. It's taken over a decade to realise this, but i am fighting a battle that was lost years ago.
So thats basically where im at right now. A lonely, miserable existence that has never got better for me.
Thanks for reading and stay safe.
I have hit a new low point and every minute of every all I think about is escaping. I have stopped caring about myself and am realy struggling to get through each day.
I can't sleep more than 2 hours a night. I lie there and my eyes are closed but it feels like im awake all night - but then of a day I am tired and have zero energy.
My family never cared about me in 32 years and one by one I have fell out with everyone except my auntie which made me realise that I must be the problem.
I've had suicidal thoughts for at least 10 years but this time is different. I have thought about travelling to a remote place but decided at home is best as there is a less chance of a member of the public having to find me.
My auntie is in her late 70s and she has no idea I feel like this as I would not ever want to worry her, especially at her age and health.
To anyone who reads this who might be having negative thoughts, please don't give up hope like me. I am just a week person and I truly belive there is no solution for me. It's taken over a decade to realise this, but i am fighting a battle that was lost years ago.
So thats basically where im at right now. A lonely, miserable existence that has never got better for me.
Thanks for reading and stay safe.
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