My filth consideration demands me to kill myself

[Hae-Gi]

My filth consideration demands me to kill myself. Today, a chimney sweeper is going to go to my apartment and spread filth, everywhere. I doubt it's the last time... moving to my apartment won't make anything better; now it will, instead, be the apartment managers that will allow people to come into my apartment, with the main key, when I may well even be naked. They had left a notice in the mailbox, but considering how seldom I would leave my apartment, they could just as well not leave one. I cannot live like that. It is a fact that I have to die. My only hope is that my shares will rise with an extreme amount, so I can buy my own house, but how likely is that, during these economically turbulent times? No, I must die... I wonder which of the neck's blood vessels is the one to cut, if you do not want to choke to death? If you choose the right one, you will just fade away, although you will, of course, feel very cold, but that's not exactly a big deal, if it kills you and is painless.

I really do hate life. There's no way I will ever be happy. Even if I do get the money to get my own house, I will still have to find my true love, to be happy, and I will not do that. I hate this so much.

 

[Terry]

Hun I know how awful it is when your home doesn't feel safe because of landlord intrusions :hug:
The sweep should come armed with sheets to protect your floor and furnishings, so any dirt should leave with him and not be all over your place :hug:
Is there anyone who could come over while he's there? At least then you won't feel quite so alone with the invasion.

 

[Hae-Gi]

Well... it turned out well, this time. My mother had the luck to be able to meet the sweeper, outside the apartment building, so he did my apartment first, instead of it having been one of the last. Also, there was no dirt, since the apartment is so new, and it was only an inspection that should've been done in all the apartments of the apartment buildings, before the tenants even moved in, so it may well just be a one-time event... also, he took his shoes off. I'll try to think positively. But I have to call the management about how invaded I feel with these intrusions... one thing is for sure, though; regardless if you are allowed or not, I'm putting extra locks, inside, before moving there.

Thanks for the consideration, by the way.