I posted this post in my blog. I swear this will be my last thread ever. I also want everyone to know that this does not mean I am going to try and kill myself. I am just saying that there will be no more threads from me on this forum. So for the past couple of months I have gone on and on about how I am just broken. How no matter what I do with my life I will never get better. I cannot do anything to escape my destiny and all that crap. With that over the past couple of months people keep on telling me that I am wrong. How I can do anything I want if I were to just try and put forth the effort. So yeah I admit it. Deep down in my heart I know very well that I could probably get better if I really applied myself. You know, maybe I won't even say probably. I know I would get better. I mean back when I started crossfit in April I could not do dead-hang pull-ups. With lots of patience and training I am not able to do 3 in a row on a good day. Not many but considered I could barely even lift my arms when I first started it is better than nothing. So yes I openly admit it. I could help myself, I could save myself, I could get what I want. However, I choose not too. I am choosing to be a hypocrite from here on out. I will keep on believing what I believe about my life. I will keep on complaining about my life. I will keep on bitching about how I am so worthless. I will keep on talking about how I will kill myself when my cat dies. I will keep on doing all of that knowing full well that I can fix myself if I wanted too. I just choose not too. So I admit to it. One day I will kill myself, hopefully sooner, rather than later. I would never wish death on my kitty, but if it happens sooner rather than later I will not be sad, I will be happy because that means that I can release myself from this worthless existence. The only reason I am going to kill myself is because I do not have the ability to seduce females NOW!!!! Not a couple years from now, not a couple weeks from now, hell not even a couple days. It is not now therefore my life is meaningless and I need to die. That is the one and only reason I have to die. I have a good career, I can support myself, and my hobbies. However, that is all meaningless unless I can get a female to help me ejaculate using her vagina. There is no other reason at this moment nor will there ever be any other reason. I am too cheap to get prostitution so do not even suggest it. I am talking about the skill to go out and seduce females without money. A skill I did not learn in high school and will never learn. I choose to not learn it now and I will die because of it. Feel free to try and sway me one way or another. However, there is nothing that can sway me. I am gone, I have checked out, I am on auto pilot until my cat dies. Do not feel obligated to leave me any messages in my threads. Treat them as me just wasting space. Me just being a hypocritical ass hole who wants to make everyone around him suffer. Because that is all I am, and that is all I will ever be. There is no reason for anyone to advise me or do anything like that. I am just screaming and people can ignore me.