Well I've started this thread and I guess I'll have to finish it now. First, I am Kos for those who I haven't met, and for those that know me I am a suicidal person. I'm not going to use this thread to try and explain what I'm going through, that would be hopeless. I will say that I'm a lost cause and this is something that would happen eventually anyways. I came here to SF to meet suicidal people like myself and to see if I could get advice on how I might be able to make my life better as I had run out of ideas. I talked with people, some of them tried to help and I'm sure they can help the average person here, but not me. I am now sure there is nothing I can do that would work out for me. I spend all my time thinking about everything but I, nor anyone else, can help me anymore, it's too late. Some of the people who I asked for help however did not even seem to try and give me help. They either didn't believe me or couldn't understand me, I'm not sure. But in my worst times, calling me stupid or silly, like this is all a big joke, did not help. I didn't want to make this a long thread so I'll end by saying I'm going to try and make a suicide attempt soon. I'll still be around these forums over the next few days, but if you don't see me again past this Monday, if I suddenly disappear, you'll know what happened. I made this thread to say goodbye to the people I've met here, and it will also encourage me to go through with this as I do not want to fail my attempt and slink back here even more a failure than before. I don't expect you to say anything, but post if you wish and say whatever you like. Try not making a long post though, you'll only be wasting your time. To those who understood and tried to help - thank you, but it turned out to be useless to try and help, and I hope you understand why I need to do this. I guess that's all I wanted to say here except goodbye and wish me luck.