I self harm by using <mod edit: bunny - methods> and cutting my chest and upper arms and back. I like to look in the mirror afterwards. It makes me look like I have been in battle. I like the pain. Why do I do it? I would never tell anyone that I do it so it is not a cry for help. I cut myself because I HATE MY SELF. I dream of throwing myself out of a building or shooting my brains out. Self harming is as far as I can go without doing the final act.