My first post on self harm

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Guy Incognito XI, Mar 15, 2007.

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  1. Guy Incognito XI

    Guy Incognito XI Well-Known Member

    I self harm by using <mod edit: bunny - methods> and cutting my chest and upper arms and back. I like to look in the mirror afterwards. It makes me look like I have been in battle. I like the pain.

    Why do I do it?

    I would never tell anyone that I do it so it is not a cry for help. I cut myself because I HATE MY SELF. I dream of throwing myself out of a building or shooting my brains out. Self harming is as far as I can go without doing the final act.
     
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  2. i understand about the battle thing, i guess i know becouse i think im kinda lame and with all the scares id think that i have been in many battles and stuff so yeah dont feel wierd that you like how it looks.
     
  3. Guy Incognito XI

    Guy Incognito XI Well-Known Member

    Kool

    thanks. wow I'm not weird.
     
  4. Ruby

    Ruby Well-Known Member

    Have you been doing it for long?
     
  5. scared_child

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    hey, I know what you mean. I dont see it as a cry for help either, i see it as a way to take out my anger at myself. I hate myself, and I hate that i mess everything up, and so I self harm to...I guess...punish myself.
     
  6. Guy Incognito XI

    Guy Incognito XI Well-Known Member

    A further thought:

    Inside my soul I feel pain and anguish. I want to physically manifest this pain onto my body so that my pain feels more tangible. I want my body to reflect my mind...scarred.
     
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