A close friend of mine last night committed suicide. She was only 31. She had always been depressed, but seemed to win the small battles with depression all the time.She had a troubled childhood, but seemed to overcome it all. She just graduated college two years ago, and finally became a teacher. Something she had always wanted to do. She had a 5 yo daughter. She always seemed a strong willed person, I remember times when she would give me advice when I would tell her about how depressed and miserable in life I was, or times someone would say something to her demeaning and she would always stand up for herself and never back down. I just sit here and just wonder at what demons she had inside of her like the rest of us just eat us away until we can take it no more. I am not sure if it is selfish, but I ask myself if she could not make it than how will I. She had a family, and support around her, but still she could not make it through. I have literally nothing, and no one so why in the world do I think I will be able to make it through all of this depression and misery. No job, no close family, no kids, basically nothing. I just wish she could have somehow found some way to win the battle she was going through, because of her little girl.