my friend

Discussion in 'Grief and Bereavement' started by Dindo, Sep 27, 2006.

  1. Dindo

    Dindo New Member

    he took his life on 7/22/06. he took mine life is a mess. now im thinking of taking my life. im on meds now I hope it helps. all I do is cry and bring flowers to his grave. I may lose my job because Im so depressed. I loved my buddy so much. why didnt he call me. im filled with guilt and pain. life does not mean much to me anymore. im always sad.
  2. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    My heart goes out to you with the loss of your friend. I have been through similar situations myself. It is never easy to lose a friend, but losing one to suicide does bring many thoughts to our minds. One is the feeling of guilt. I want you to know that in no way are you responsible for your friends death. Once the decision has been made, rarely can you change their mind. It was his choice. No one can say why your friend didn't reach out to you for help, but he had his reasons. He may have been afraid to hurt you, or knew you would do whatever you could to stop him. I can tell you that the sadness, although it never completely goes away, does diminish over time. I still wonder what I could have done differently. What I could have said. Why I didn't know. So many questions and none can be answered. I have come to terms with knowing it was not my fault. I hope you are able to do the same. I am here if you need some one to talk with. PM me and I will get back with you as soon as I can. Take care of yourself. I will check back on you later. Take care. :hug:
  3. Allo..

    Allo.. Well-Known Member

    i can only imagine how hard this must be for you. Do you think he would have wanted you to die because he did? You shouldnt feel guilty because there was nothing you could do, he did it and im sure you would have been there for him the whole way. it just got to much for him.. Take care, im always here to talk if you want someone to talk about it, or anything, to. x