I'm at my wits end. My girlfriend of a year has had a lot of trama during her life including sexual abuse (at an early age), a chronic illness and on top of the suffers from severe anxiety and depression. During better days she hides most of this very well from everyone, and can be one of the more personable, outgoing people I've ever met. Lately though she has had a number of set backs, including a loss of a job and problems in school which could potential lead to her being kicked out of school. During this time her anxiety and depression has also taken a severe toll on our relationship and I'm sure I've failed her in many ways... Lately she has often talked about suicide, but after talking with her family this is something she regularly does during her depressive episodes and as far as I know she have never attempted it. She has told me on a number of occasions that the only thing stopping her from proceeding is her cats (as she is afraid what will happen to them if she is gone). She has also lately stopped talking to her mother and has many days where she medicates herself into sleeping all day. The medicine is prescibed to her for pain and anxiety, and does seem to help her mode, but makes her sleepy and non-productive. She also complains of not having any friend or anyone she can talk to (including myself). She does see a psychologist and has an appointment soon, but I've never seen her so bad and I am very concerned. I've mentioned that maybe she should call a hotline just to talk with someone, but she is very resistent. I think she is afraid that they may try and forceable take her away for a pyschological evaulation or something and that that would someone come back and affect her reputation/school etc... (Sorry I don't know much about this). We recently want to a NAMI group counseling session which seemed to temporary help her, but now a few days later she is worse then ever... She has no immediate family nearby and refuses to receive calls from her mom and doesn't want anything to do with her brother. I don't know what to do. The relationship is also seriously effecting my mental state as well as I am also becoming depressed and very stressed. Ultimatly I don't think I can be in this relationship much longer, but I truly do care for her and don't want anything to happen. I know this is very selfish of me and I hate myself for this. I'm not writing this to talk about myself, but my life before her was already complicated, and now things seem to be spinning out of control. I'm hoping for some words of wisdom. I've literally sick on my stomach right now and have a massive headache after our last fight/conversation even though I don't want or try to argue. Nothing I'm doing is right and I'm always the bad guy somehow.