I wasn't really sure where to put this, it covers depression relationships and borders on suicide. I read somewhere that a person is likely to consider suicide if their pain outweighs the resources they have to fight that pain. I have never liked my life. It's like, whenever i try to do something to make myself a little bit happier something else goes wrong and makes me feel worst than before. The reason i posted this thread here instead of under suicide is because i don't really want to kill myself, i want to want to kill myself because if i wanted to die i would just do it then all this pain would go away. I was feeling like this about three years ago, but then i met a girl, she was perfect for me, and she didn't make my pain go away but she made it easier to deal with, so now the resources balanced out the pain. Now she's left and i obviously have the pain of her leaving, making the pain heavier, but also i have lost the only effective resource i have ever had to cope with my pain.