last march, one of my friends commited suicide. she was only 13. i went to her funeral- but i still can't get over her death. but what makes it worse is that i can't cry. the tears want to come but they won't. it hurts that i can't cry and about a week ago i cut myself with a woman's razor on my hand, because i was depressed. i regretted it almost instantly- and i have only told two people who are my best friends in the whole world and i would trust with my life. i haven't even told my sister- and we tell eachother everything. it was my friend's death, and my exam stress, and college stress all just weighing up on me... and i haven't got any happier and i'm scared i might do it again. please, please help because i feel horrid.