I don't even know where to start, I'm a multiple combat veteran 3 tours to Iraq 2004-2005, 2005-2006, 2007-2008 and my most recent was to Afghanistan 2011-2012. I begged to go on this last combat tour, I wanted to go to Astan something fierce. unfortunately I was assigned to a horrible degrading unit, our leaders wer micro managing sociopathic control freaks who browbeat and intimidate subordinates, we hated our own senior leaders more than the Taliban....pretty messed up huh? I prayed that a Taliban IED would maim me...so I could go home. my experiences in Iraq were tough, but positive, I had good leadership, good men. is last tour was terrible, 10 years of constant lies....lies form our leaders in DC and the worst getting promoted have created a nightmare for the kids over there. I came home in the spring. and have not been the same.....my temper is fierce, my patience gone...my views are extreme, my faith in god is gone....I've sold a lot of my possessions.....I've lost faith in materialism. I am dead, I am hate. I have a wife.........I'm not happy in marriage, she only stays because she has nothing without me...and knows it. I have a 3 year old son........... I walk around and see this fat happy clueless country, and I hate it....I hate the ignorance I hate the apathy. I almost want some cataclysm to happen....so everyone can suffer...like my men and I did....that is so wrong I know. I considered taking myself out a couple times....but always fall short. everything I thought I was is gone. the drive that got me to a leadership position at 23....... I'm 28 now, is gone I have no fire...........no goals no dreams."........I mearly....exist. I post stupid political rants on Facebook...........even though I'm just an ant......a cog in a giant wheel. I have no Idea what to do...I want out, out of my marriage......out of the military, out of it all, I want a new start.