I dont know how...but the pain in my heart is too real yet surreal to endure. There is no room in my life for giving my love away, to someone who'll just use it to soothe their own burns, I'm not ready for a relationship. I feel so depressed all tthe sudden. I thought I was better, took zoloft for about two months and now all the sudden Im sick and sad again. But also, I have been slap happy and now Im depressed....I think its the guy Ive been talking to.