I have not been on a holiday in 6 years so this should be a time of joy BUT I'm a little scared of going on my holiday, first off I have not seen these cousins i am staying with in more than 20 plus years (im 26 lol), slightly afraid of flying but I know the statistics are in my favour as you are more likely to be killed on the way to the airport than be in a plane crash. They might think I want to sight see, I might but I have sciatica on my left side and it can really hurt to walk far sometimes. Last but not least I'm afraid they won't like me, they don't know I am obese, they know of my mental issues but they're fine with that, they are not going to judge me as my cousins son is currently on suicide watch in london. I am afraid I will be too shy to talk to them, I have a friendly personality but other than general chit chat I'm not a great talker. Some suggestions/advice/support or even just a hug will be greatly appreciated!