Hello i'm a 27 year old male from the UK and going through a shit time at the moment. I joined here just to see if other people are going through similar issue as myself. Not really sure what I should post or what to expect, so here it goes. My problems have been going on for a about 4 months, just feeling really down all the time, feeling alone, not really seeing a future for myself. I'm always struggled with confidence and its held me back in my life. I blew my oppurtunities and University, basically wasted 3 years doing nothing and the job I do now I could have done leaving school. I really hate my life at the moment apart from when I play football (soccer) i'm never at peace. I've started having suicidal thoughts since last month when I found out the person I love is having a child to somebody else. Everything been rushing around in my head since and I cant escape the thoughts of her its on my mind every second of every day. I've started seeing a counsellor and hoping this will make me feel better and get some happiness back into my life. I dont really want any of my family knowing about my feelings as I dont want to upset them. I dont think I would ever do anything to harm myself only becasue I wouldnt want to hurt those close to me.