Sorry i guess i should have done this before posting other threads. Leave it me to mess even this up. Ive suffered from depression since an early age. Im now 34 and its been off and on more intense than ever. I used to say that suicide could never be an option. Now its all i think about sometimes, especially today which is why ive come here. Im a father, a husband (well not legally but i am in my heart). I love those two with all my heart. But sometimes that love doesnt feel like its enough to stop these compulsions and the depression. I have no money for counseling, but im on some meds. Well thats about it for me. I hope to glean some sort of help by talking to people here, and maybe help someone else like me if i can.