Today, during the last 2 hours of my job, while sitting at my desk I did nothing, just thinking about how I will kill myself. I had work to do, but I didn't do it. I barely spoke to anyone today. My physical condition getting worse each day. My nerves twitch, I always feel light headed and black outs. Hopefully I won't have to kill myself. Maybe I will die naturally soon. One day I am just going to wake up in the morning, not go to work and finish myself off for good. I won't be taken for granted anymore.